Can't believe that the last time I wrote was nearly 1 year ago, 1 year's gone and again I gain nothing, pathetic. Can't agree more , I'm definately a very typical Gemini, complicate simple thing all the time; but that's out of nature I guess, just can't help.

Growing up in the over protective environment make me forget how to fly, give me a pair of wings, I'll still be stuck. That's me. Flying freely? Too much of a dreamer or not just a dreamer? In deed, am only dare to dream, dreaming of freedom, dreaming of becoming strong and independant, and all these only happen in my dream.

Stop telling me how, but show me; get me out of here am! not a celebrity but am stuck!!

The 7th day of Chinese New Year, people's day, birthday to all the human being. Was quite exciting about it, gathering with my families, Lou Sang; but it was like years ago. Where's the excitement gone? Must be the price for living faraway from home.

How I wish I could be at home at this very moment; anyway, days still go on, without letting you know when and how. Am still very lucky though, been celebrating the New Year with some close friend, a bunch of us staying together, it was quite good really.

Another year is gone, new hopes rise; new year resolution?? Don't bother, just wish myself good luck, and to whoever that's reading this right now, all the best for the new year.

This Christmas

Finally a white Christmas, been wishing for it for years; this Christmas, for me is a very different and special one, spending time with my precious friends. Stayed over at friend's having my first traditional Christmas meal (no turkey though:D )

Singing, eating, sipping wine, and talking, 2 days gone without notice. Everything was just nice, many thanks for Linda, Debbie and CK for counting us for the big day, thought they would rather spent the day with their family. The best Christmas 's probably spending quality times with close friends while family is not around. Am glad to have them in my live. The white Christmas is a bonus to this special day.












(picture took on 1st Jan, didn't have the effort to make the snownam during Christmas)

It's a quiet night again, I like it. Sipping my wine and write.

Another year is coming to an end, and once again, I'd made a mess on everything. Regret?? yes and no. Anyway, when a decision is made, I just have to deal with it.

It's time for new year resolution again, what's yours?

Mine? I wish I can have a holiday at home, but am skint at the moment. No more holiday unless I manage to get a proper job. Lots of thing need to be done, but once again, my laziness. Anyway, can't wait any longer, hey me, important things come first!! PR, PR, PR...take the test, get a lawyer!! Well, that's actually my must do thing for the new year.

By the way, the winter is not as cold this year, unless until now:-D

Hey, people out there, you wanna say something bad about me, making rumours about me, it's fine； no way I'll argue about it, no way I'll defence myself t; I believe, truly believe, my friends know me. I don't even need to defend, because if you know me, you'll just know the truth. Am I doing the right thing? for staying quiet? Who cares what others think, just be myself, be me, cheer up!!!

Relief

Finally made the decision, am leaving my job now, in two weeks time, no more a bar girl, no more working in the floor, only in the office now. A little comfort, a little relief; life ahead of me might be difficult, but it's a new path of my life, been doing what I am not suppose to for too long, time to find my oldself.

Yes, go for it, why not??

Lost

Been feeling miserable for the past 2 weeks, and very emotional too. It's time for a change, can't take this any longer. Well, will writing again help? Hopefully. Am not good at all in expressing my own feeling, and don't like talk about and share my worries; I rather find my own way out. This is bad really.

Should'd blog again long ago, just going out to oftenly lately, I just didn't have the time. Will find time to write again, feel better when i write, will find some happy moment to talk about.

Cheer up , the miserable moment is going to an end, it takes time, but at least am finding a new path to go on now.