It's a quiet night again, I like it. Sipping my wine and write.

Another year is coming to an end, and once again, I'd made a mess on everything. Regret?? yes and no. Anyway, when a decision is made, I just have to deal with it.

It's time for new year resolution again, what's yours?

Mine? I wish I can have a holiday at home, but am skint at the moment. No more holiday unless I manage to get a proper job. Lots of thing need to be done, but once again, my laziness. Anyway, can't wait any longer, hey me, important things come first!! PR, PR, PR...take the test, get a lawyer!! Well, that's actually my must do thing for the new year.

By the way, the winter is not as cold this year, unless until now:-D

Hey, people out there, you wanna say something bad about me, making rumours about me, it's fine； no way I'll argue about it, no way I'll defence myself t; I believe, truly believe, my friends know me. I don't even need to defend, because if you know me, you'll just know the truth. Am I doing the right thing? for staying quiet? Who cares what others think, just be myself, be me, cheer up!!!

Relief

Finally made the decision, am leaving my job now, in two weeks time, no more a bar girl, no more working in the floor, only in the office now. A little comfort, a little relief; life ahead of me might be difficult, but it's a new path of my life, been doing what I am not suppose to for too long, time to find my oldself.

Yes, go for it, why not??

Lost

Been feeling miserable for the past 2 weeks, and very emotional too. It's time for a change, can't take this any longer. Well, will writing again help? Hopefully. Am not good at all in expressing my own feeling, and don't like talk about and share my worries; I rather find my own way out. This is bad really.

Should'd blog again long ago, just going out to oftenly lately, I just didn't have the time. Will find time to write again, feel better when i write, will find some happy moment to talk about.

Cheer up , the miserable moment is going to an end, it takes time, but at least am finding a new path to go on now.

Days without computer

Surprisingly, it's quite happening. Had been going out more than I used to be. I even suggested to sis that, even when the computer's fixed, why don't we have a computer free day every fortnightly? You'll be surprise by how much work can be done with out turning on your computer.

Have a really bad habit on sticking to the computer all the time, just turn it on unconsciously everyday after work. and then one whole day would be pass without notice.

The first day when my computer's dead, I spent just 2 hours cleaning my room, just bloody 2 hours and my room transformed; I managed to finished off the novel that I'd been leaving aside for ages; I bought newspaper in stead of reading from the internet, and it's much more interesting.

Am loving it, but at the same time, miss my computer a lot, it's been almost 2 weeks without a computer, I can't stand it any longer, when can I get my computer back? need to keep back on track with my friends. The server in the office is god damn slow.

To be honest, it's impossible to live with out a computer, what I need is just a computer free day occasionally.